we really Love Sai"
When i made this website as a part of StarSai.com
holy feets network in 2007, the caption of this site was "Do
we really love Saibaba" ....In the little message below i have
wrote why i was tempted to keep such a caption. In june 2009, i
felt like having a positive caption for this site. So changed it
to "Sai, you are my heart, you are my soul"
when ever i join my pam and pray to saibaba in the saibaba
temple in our town i used to say this to sainath.
About Starsai.net - Healing Shirdi Saibaba devotees in relationship
issues ( Starsai.com is main site )
Starsai is for helping shirdi sai
devotees learn sais ways in day to day life :
I am ordinary person ,humble servant of sai living with desires
like anyone. There are so many litrature about shirdi sais life
and good spiritual articles . Please forgive me if i seem to act
too smart honestly discussing matters like love,relationships and
marriage which you might not find spiritual. Starsai is all about
helping mordern world with desireful devotees of shirdi saibaba
understand his ways to make their shradha and saburi stronger.
Not just today but even after 50 or 100 years culture is going
to change a lot and people who follow shirdi sai must have someone
ordinary,foolish,vulnarable and stupid like me who did nothing in
his life for 3 years accept coming around dhuni ( sacred fire )
, sometimes fall in love ( Not now. it was back
in 2005 .....i really do it as i want to know if theres one girl
in this planet who will loves a man for what he is and not for what
he is doing because true love according to me must not have reasons
of earthly status.I rewrite this article in june 2009. Now i feel
its better to Love Saibaba more .I always pray saibaba to bless
me with lots of love for Sai emerging in me...Give me your love
Sai. ! ) ,
Betwenn 2005 to 2007 , Sometimes cry to baba, sometimes help other
sai devotees in pain and sometimes showered with advice from cousins,
friends,parents and sister .The top one amoung the top ten advice
will have the following sentance for sure "Venkat , it high
time you concentrate in your career ".
Yes i did but i am too egoistic...he he... thats what baba says
and i ask for things that baba cant give or he purposely wont give
. Do you think i would have tried to help thousands of sai devotees
with this purticular article if on the same day am working in an
editing studio cutting a song or doing photography for national
geographic. So baba made me sit like dumb fellow and i also liked
it. Who else can get this opportunity to learn, know and serve the
worlds No : 1 CEO , my sweet shirdi saibaba.
So finally it became my way of life.Thinking, being and living
with shirdi saibaba and also figthing with him and crying to him
to get me out of this and make me settle down with a career else
my parents are not gonna be happy with me.
What do i mean by the caption"
Do we really love sai "
I really felt like crying when i read the following words from
sai samartha satcharita :
Listen to what sai says to the devotees "
Do not worry at all. I will give you plenty of money. Sit near me
with out care.
In this world, everybody has somebody or
the other, but nobody belongs to me. Allah and only Allah is mine.
If someone loves me more than life,
I need such a person. If such a person
gives me something, I give to him a hundred fold".
I can count the number of devotees who come to shirdi only with
pure love on sai. You can spot not more than very
very few people in a crowd of one lakh. Baba loves your devotion
and he "gives". As long as he gives you like him. The
moment he allows your bad karma to be washed for which you are supposed
to suffer, why is your love on sai
fading away ?. The worst part
is , i know a girl who stopped coming to sai temple just because
things dint worked out as she wished. Its not just in this relationship
issue. I know devotees who hurt baba with words when their materialistic
benefits in career, business etc is not provided.
I am not against a devotee who gets irritated and fights with sai.
Sai is our mother and we have all rights to either show our love
or frankly fight with sai but never ever even imagine to stop loving
Have you seen the real life photo of baba where he leans over
the wall and stands. Look at him deeply and think hardly .....is
it his wish to give you pains ? . We call him "Sai maharaj
" ....we see his statue in shirdi with silver thrown and golden
crown but see this real life photo of baba once and look at how
this " Sai Maharaj " really is. Is he having a thrown
or a crown ?. He used to sit on a stone. Do you know the what was
the stone used for before baba started sitting over it, the stone
we prostrate in front of dwarakamai in shirdi ?......Before baba
made that stone as his asan , it was used by someone to wash clothes
and beat the clothes so as to clean it. Philosphically sai would
have made it as his Asan to wash our bad karma .Such
a humble, sweet, poor saint , whos avatar itself is for helping
us , will he ever think bad for us ? Its all our own
atmas karma for which we took birth and its our parents good deeds
or our big blessing of this birth that we came into sais fold.
Why should we always pray, remember
and think about saibaba of shirdi just for materialistic benefits
Can you please think one day in your life when you shed tears
looking at sai baba statue or photo thanking him for taking this
Where will we run in this forest of wordly desires if sai has not
come as a guide who takes us in the right path ?
Where will we sail in this wild ocean of worldly affairs if baba
has not come as a huge wooden plank to rescue us from huge waves
and safely take us to the shore ?
What will we do if shirdi saibaba is not there to tell our pains
?. How long will our mother, father , friends , sister, brother
or even your husband , wife and children listen to you. Imagine
how many millions of children this sai listens to every single day.
Did we ever thank him for being
there for us ?
Did we ever shed single drop of
tears of affection for making us realize the presence of sai ?
Did we ever realize that we are actually following a great saint
to whom even the nature obeys. If he commands the rain to stop,
immediately the rain stops and if he commands the sky to rain, black
clouds rush from no where and showers rain like a blessing.
When such a saint to whom even the nature listens is commanding
us to go through the sufferings for the past bad karma we did ,
then why are we not listening to him ?. Even
when i suffer, i take it as sais commands. Infact i have
done only what sai asked me to do through visions, words, dreams
and other hints .Innocently doing what sai said, i had faced worst
pains, been named as phycho and had gone through insults and hurts
one cant imagine. Even then i consider my sufferings as a commond
sai gave me and i took it happily irrespective of my sweet little
anger on him once in a while.
Baba has said " "He who carps and cavils at others pierces
me in the heart and injures me – but he
that suffers and endures pleases me most.".
So lets remain under babas feet and show our love on sai no matter
what happens in our life.
Even am praying sai , doing all this childishly but am also suffering
for years ..why am i not leaving sai ? Am i not hugging baba everyday
and showing my love for him ? . I just realized no matter what sai
does its for my good and its my own karma and bad deeds of this
life or past life which has made me suffer .There are few people
who are like this whom i consider as a part of starsai family. Fortunately
by blessings of my parents am into sais fold and starsai family
has given me wonderful, sweet, affectionate friends and we care
for each other like a family.
I thank baba for most affectionate parents who has let me do sais
work which no other parent will allow leaving my focus in career
or what ever crap this society needs from a man. My parents are
worried about me but they know someday i will lead a life as they
Starsai family will grow as a huge banyan tree in the years to
come and i always wish to remain in the shade of my affectionate
, kind and caring sai friends whom i treasure a lot. Baba i love
you and irrespective of all the scoldings i have given you and the
fact that you dint helped me do what my parents want from me, i
still love you. Atleast i know i
really love you baba and i have started starsai.net to make
every single shirdi sai devotee to love you beyond what you give
Baba my relationship with you is not a business of blessings. Its
a bond that has remained intact for several births .You are in my
DNA, you are my heart , you are my soul. As you haD said it sai
satcharita , you had followed me for 63 generations or 700 years
or may be 7000 years. I wish theres no other birth for me and if
there is one, i wish you be my guru and i remain your servant.
In the feets of shirdi saibaba all my life ,
Aum sri sai ram
7 : 09 : 2007
Love sai beyond what he gives and takes.
You can write to me to mail id in www.starsai.com
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